23.9.03
mood .:+:. [crapped. jux totally crapped.]
listening to .:+:. [linkin park--easier to run]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [cool]
feeling damn crapped now. just so bleah. no mood to type much larh. haha the song im hearing now so fits me man. oh whatever.
just maybe u wanna know the details, u can go to
this webbie.
21:22
22.9.03
mood .:+:. [feelin crappy]
listening to .:+:. [mandy moore--crush]
eating .:+:. [pear]
drinking .:+:. [apple juice]
time .:+:. [nite]
weather .:+:. [cool. its always cool at night wad.]
haha...got tis crappy survey in the mail...since i haf nth better to do [except study, which i am
definitely not doing] i'll copy paste it here ;p
1 whole name? Kristy Anne Kilbride Gammell
2 age? born 5/9/88...go count urself larh ;p
3 address? im too lazy to type the whole damn thing here. paiseh~ go check phone book kae? ;p
4 phone #? haha. if youre readin this u should know my number. ;p
5 school? PLMGSS
6 pets? yepx
7 if yes, how many and what kind? one. one tiny little fish, official sole survivor after 11 others went down the toilet. :D
8 sibling? yeah...you know, ive got this little monkey...
9 how many? 1
10 how many friends do you have? haha the whole wide world. haha ;p
11 Do you have a g/f,b/f?who? nopex...swinging single... *surprised, anyone? ;p*
~~~~~FAV~~~~
12 music group? linkin park rawks man~!!
13 colour? black and red and white and....oRaNgE pUrPLe n pInk~!! ;pPp
14 food? i'd
die for chocolate.
15 drink? sub-zero...and when i cant get that, itx vanilla coke~ :)
16 snack? chocolate. duh~~
17 number? 73~!!! 737373....haha
18 thing to do? Talk to friends at 2 in the morning. It shows you who your real friends are...if they brave the wee hours and embrace insomnia just to talk to you, then you know they're in it for the friendship. haha. either that or hanging out wif fwenx
19 song? hillsongs~!! haha...and the song esier to run n hit the floor by linkin park...and the middle by jimmy eat world...and...*bLaHbLaHbLaH*
20 game? DDR~! hahahahahahaha.........
21 holiday? hm...any day that i dont have to go to school. :)
22 sport? watching soccer...playin basketball or pool :D
23 quote? "Everything will be okay in the end. If its not okay, its not the end."
24 actor? oRLaNdO bLoOm~!! ;p
25 actress? uh...i dunno...myself?? hEeHeE~ :x
26 TV show? anything thatx on at the moment. as long as itx not that crappy channel newsasia my parents r so fascinated by.
27 movie? any horror movie...so i got a gd excuse to sCrEaM and deafen everyone within earshot of me wahahaha~ *evil laugh*
28 animal? wolf...eagle...tiger...[i just realised i have an affinity for ferocious animals...ahaha :x]
29 subject? i hate school, remember? okay...maybe recess... ;p
30 season? in singapore, the only season that exists is summer. (x_x) bleh.
31 month? September :))
32 day? any day that doesnt have skool. :>
33 time? what kinda question is this???
34 PC game? eRrM...nEoPeTx~? :$
35 Simpson char? they all suck. humans with really yellow skin? eeeeeew gross.
36 clothing? anything, anything but frills and bows. eeyeck. ...mostly jeans or shorts and a cute top.
37 letter? K. ;p
38 Zodiac sign? Virgo~!! coz itx mine haha ;p
39 insect? um...butterflies? purple ones. wahahaha. :x
~~~~THIS OR THAT~~~~~
40 pepsi/coke? both of them taste the same...but just for the record? coke.
41 cackies/jeans? jeans. definitely, jeans. [whats a cackie, anyway?]
42 Christmas/Halloween? Christmas...coz tatx when i can get all my prezzies~!! :D
43 66/99? 73. :x
44 pizza/BBK? What's BBK?
45 rich man/woman who treats you like crap/poor man who treats you right? Rich is good...but I wanna be treated right.
46 dorittos/potato chips? apple chips. less fat :D
47 Nsync/BSB? *gag*
48 Christina/Britney? you. cant. be. serious. (0.0) [theyre both sluts anyway]
49 Bush/Gore? myself. hehehe.
50 hot/cold? Hmm...Cold ;p ive got enough of the 'hot' part in sgp, anyway.
~~~~~FRIENDS~~~~
51 bestest? my korkor, melv...eugene the from church one...ah pang, the nutter who alwayx makes me laff my ass off...phoeb and last but not least, haruka. *l0v3 y0u gUyS~!! [ruka, DONT freak]*
52 dullest? my friends are all pretty interesting....
53 weirdest? if u mean weird as in nUtX~ I'm weird. I have a hard time comparing my friends with me and finding one that's more whatever than I. hahaha.
54 smartest? trixia
55 loudest? me. ahaha.
56 most annoying? JL. suck-upper.
57 tallest? haha...eRnIe cHuA~!!! hahaha... :x
58 shortest? heyaz, itz me again~!!!
59 prettiest? whoeva it is, definitely NOT me...maybe christy chu?
60 most fun? erm...ah pang?
~~~~~~LOVE~~~~~~~~
61 do u have a g/f, b/f? no. i said no already~~
62 do you believe in love at first sight? well...yeah, but so far it hasnt happened to me. [love is defined as being forever...right?]
63 do u have a crush? haha erm...yeah...
64 if yes, who is it? i am NOT telling. but its a guy, my friends friend and i think he's damn cute. *does that help?* ;p
~~~~~~~~~~~ONLINE~~~~~~~~
65 do you have AOL? at the risk of seeming stupid...what is AOL?
66 do you have an online relationship with ppl you don't know? if i didnt know them, could i even haf a relationship with them?!~?
67 do u ever meet the person you talk to? sometyms...
68 what do u like to do on the internet? Talk to people and write my diary. oh yeah, online gaming too. nEoPeTx~!!! hahahahahaha....
69 how many buddies do u have on you buddy list? the world.
70 do u talk you older men if you are 16 17 or 18, i mean like 50? Eew, no, freakshow.
~~~~~~~~~~LIFE~~~~~~~~
71 do u like your life? well...uh...not really...maybe...yes, no *pause* i dunno.
72 if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? my parents suck. overprotective. and theyre just crap. bleah.
73 are you a good listener or a good speaker? Both, I think...hehehe... ;p
74 Do u want to get married? Yeah...what is life without love? *grinz*
75 do u want to have kids? yeah...
76 if so, how many? 73~! juz kidding. 3, maybe? 2 guys, one girl.
77 are you happy? when my parents rnt getting on my nerves, hell yeah. iM nUtXxX~!!! wahahahaha...
19:40
mood .:+:. [sian]
listening to .:+:. [the sound of my IRC pinging-ponging *ping pong ping pong* hahaha]
eating .:+:. [toblerone]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [late mornin']
weather .:+:. [hot. damn freakin' hot.]
Aphrodite/Eros
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla
im in art class now...*yawnx* skool is like, so boring. okay yeah duh who doesnt know tat. as someone would say "so what else is new?" haha yeah kae wadeva...
sorry 4 my crap attitude but im reali crapped out rite now..especially after what happened last night *which is actually something that happens in varied forms like,
every damn night*
oh yeah. last night. supposed to fill ya in on the details.
my dad went down to get some ice cream
*yay~ icecream~!!* and he came back up wif this reali black face and started yelling at me like why is your damn bill $88 bucks and who the hell is gonna pay for it and stuff lidat.
he went so red in the face i tot that he was gonna fall over n have a heart attack or something.
too bad.
then he made such a holy racket about me being the reason why everyone in the family had to stinge because of my hp bill.
right. as if thatx not enough he still wanna tok about how everyone would get on better if i wasnt there and blahblahblah.
...you know what? maybe he's rigght. maybe they would get on better if i wasnt there. maybe i should just go run away. or kill myself or sth. haha.
maybe i should have just yelled that at him yesterday and taken thar damn chance to just walk out once and for all. and never go back. jeez, ive been wanting to do that since like...forever.
but my dad'll most prob chase me in with the cane. yeah.
ironic. he says he'd do better if i wasnt there, but when i wanna walk off he wants me back in. i'll never understand parents.
hell...i just want out. you know, like away from here. maybe run away to another country and get another life. but i dont know how or where to...
okay, maybe i do, but its a crazy plan.
and i need someone whox dependable and logical and just as crazy as me to pull it off. coz if i ever go i dont wanna go alone, ya know?
crap, what am i talking about. not as if i'll ever get my freedom anyway.
11:16
21.9.03
mood .:+:. [hurt sad alone and damn pissed off]
listening to .:+:. [simple plan--perfect]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [cool]
jux took a load of crap from my parents. knn. why cant they jux freakin' leave me alone?! hell, i cant take this. i dont wanna live this crappy life of mine anymore. seriously. neway gtg. blog in tml wif the details. if i can get a chance on the comp tat is.
btw, don, thanx a million man...u knw wad for. if u dun, dun ask. *hugx*
+:.sometimes this house feels/like a prison/that i jux cant leave behind/theres so many rules i/gotta follow/coz u cant let go/i dont wanna hear it/and i j-j-just cant believe it/all the stupid things you say but
//one day/i wont take this anymore/one day/i'll be old enough/to do/to do/to do/what i want to/i wont have to run away/and you wont be there to say im not allowed to/one day//
sometimes i wonder/if you know me/or if you jux pretend to care/tell me are you on a mission/to bring me down/i dont wanna hear it/and i j-j-just cant believe it/all the stupid things you say but
//one day/i wont take this anymore/one day/i'll be old enough/to do/to do/to do/what i want to/i wont have to run away/and you wont be there to say im not allowed to/one day [one day--simple plan].:+
21:45
mood .:+:. [tired]
listening to .:+:. [good charlotte--boys and girls]
eating .:+:. [nothing]
drinking .:+:. [water]
time .:+:. [late afternoon]
weather .:+:. [sunny]
i screwed up my solo today....fReAk~!! went thru half the worship then realised tat i
4got to on the mic wahaha~ :x eniwae gd ting my youth group veri oN~ so everyone worshipping God n no one pay attention to me haha ;p
don came my youth group today...wah he veri dao lei~ haha when i sa him at j8 today when i went to go pick him up from there i was like oMiGoD wad did he do to his hAiR~!? (0.0) ...haha he spike his fringe onli...spike str8 out somemore...look like a bull wahahahahah~ *sOrRi dOn~ :x*
then he so damn tall...n wear the pants so shiny...haha look like
inverted lampost hahax *eh he own self say tat okay~ not i try to bully him arhx dun enihow say me ;p*
eniwae today our cell got like, so many guys...haha we finally beat PX~!!! yAyYyY~!! haha finally LASOW got more guys than them ;p haha see...
tHe pOwEr oF pRaYeR mAn ;p
eniwae i gtg...my mom yelling at me go stardy...coz i haben stardy...even though my exams r like, 2 weeks away...kkae i go catch up on one whole year of bio now...maybe later blog bak in larhx~
+:.Educated with money
He's well dressed not funny
And not to say in most conversations
But he'll foot the bill in all situations
'Cause he pays for everything
Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money
Boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny
Paper or plastic,
Don't matter she'll have it
Vacations and shopping sprees these are a few of her favorite things
She'll get what she wants if she's willing to please
His type of girl always comes with a fee
Hey now there's nothing for free
Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money
Boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny
And these girls like these boys, like these boys like these girls
The girls with the bodies like boys with Ferraris
Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and $$$$$~!!.:+
*haha so true ;p*
17:27
20.9.03
mood .:+:. [still damn pek]
listening to .:+:. [linkin park--figure 0.9]
eating .:+:. [chocs]
drinking .:+:. [ribena]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [cool]
Whose Sense Of Humor Do YOU Share?
Nothin ever stops all these thoughts
n the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin
It's like nothin I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
Cuz from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of settin it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
It never goes away [x2]
And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
Hearin your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin
I see you n every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committin myself to em n everyday
I regret sayin those things cuz now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
It never goes away [x2]
And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
22:46
mood .:+:. [very very pek chek]
listening to .:+:. [50 cent--P.I.M.P. (RMX) haha i like the gunshots ;p]
eating .:+:. [nothing not hungry]
drinking .:+:. [nothing not thirsty]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [rainy]
i have to stop treating don like my boyfriend. i have to stop treating don like my boyfriend. i have to stop treating don like my boyfriend. i have to stop treating don like my boyfriend. i have to stop treating don like my boyfriend. i have to stop treating don like my boyfriend. i have to stop treating don like my boyfriend...
arghx...this sucks. i mean, wHy cant i just take my mind off that kinda crap for like, a day? *...why cant i take my mind off
hIm for a day?* i think im getting too close to don...and itx getting too dangerous.
i
hAvE to stop it.
im mean, once you fall in love, youre giving that person a chance to hurt you, right?
RIGHT?!
im just scared of getting hurt again. and its like, already happening? don's been acting a little weird the past few days... dont know, just weird. he's like, different from when i first knew him. or maybe i just didnt know him before. but whatever it is...he's treating me...sort of weird like...yeah. *shrugx* maybe i think too much sometimes.
hehe.
my point is...hell, im not even attached to him, and im already getting a bit down and hurt just because something changed.
and i dont wanna feel like that. i dont ever wanna feel like that
again. *you know who and what im talking about. but if you dont, then forget it.*
i cant keep giving pieces of my heart away...
especially when most of it is still with that, er...that
guy who yanked it out of my heart, tied it in a knot, stomped on it and kicked it across the room.
this has to stop dammit.
aRgHx s0o0o0o pEk~~
anyway, i had worship prac today...haha my first tym~!! :D wahahax...my first tym and ben chia still wan me to intro one of the songs..(x_X) not that i dun wan to larh...but what if i like, screw up?? *fReAk0uT~*
nvm, im not singing 4 ppl, im singing 4 God~!! :D
...but don is there lei...what if he..
crap. me and my don ting again. man this sucks.
19:43
19.9.03
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means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
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18:18
18.9.03
arghx~!!! my pimples r breaking out....
crap.
they hafta disappear by sunday...
b4 don sees them...
:x
i better start praying hard...very very hard.
o god i hate teenage life.
stupid pimples~!!!
*screamx~*
wahaha.
21:47
veri sian lei...last nite neva slp properli onli slp 4 hours...nw kena tis damn headache. and later got 3 tests canz...wish me luck man i last nite stay up to play internet not to study onex...
art class end liao. gtg...
crap, man...im so dead.
09:38
11.9.03
im bored.
i cant believe it but im bored.
i mean, its the september hols man...im not supposed to be bored...but i am.
well i guess anyone would be bored if they had to stay cooped up at home 24 hours scrambling to finish some crappy art prep work. bleahx~
im going to pulau ubin on saturday...and to pasir ris tml, so apologies if i dont blog in.
haruka's coming wif me to P.U., but i dont think christy is. or maybe she's coming with her mom. *shrugx* dunno. christy's a realli nice gurl...cant help being jealous of her sometimes. i mean, her mom is like, s0o0o damn understanding canz...she allows her out on dates, allows boyfriends, allows her to go out anytime she wants, she hardly has a curfew, and once you step back into the house it doesnt mean youre not stepping out again.
dammit why cant my parents give me some
freakin' FREEDOM for
christ's sake?!~?!?
*screamx*
hehe.
eniwae christy told me sth like, a few days ago...on sunday i tink...and i'll neva forget it. she said sth like "if you start relationships at tis age...dont expect them to last, they normally dont."
yeah...guess ive always wanted too much for too long...tatx y i get so down when it doesnt work out. [example, sam.]
*shrugx* i know i know im
waAaY too emotional for my own good so
shut up already.
kaox why cant don hurry up and go home...sick of waiting for his call....
i went to orchard yesterday wif jing terry n don...haha terry bought 4 me tis realli realli hot cd...planet dance... hours of nonstop dance music
...rAwKx mAn~!!! took pix wif everyone but i dun know how to load them in so i guess i'll jux pass on it yeahx? hEe~
oh don's back...
FINALLY~!
ciao y'allx
20:09
4.9.03
sorry if i dont blog in regularly...the
story im writing takes up most of my free time...jux tat i tink ive got writerx block now...yupx. scully run out of ideas...enione wanna gif me some? ;pPp
18:04