31.10.03
mood .:+:. [relieved sia]
listening to .:+:. [easier to run--linkin park]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [water]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [rainy]
haix...yep today got the verdict liaos....iM nOt rEtAiNeD~!!!!!!!!! yAyyYyyYyyY~!!
happie. ok, maybe not.
jus tinking back to the past today....feel a little down coz of all that..wont go into details. the faster i forget, the better. want a big hint? my love life.
yeah, you can guess the rest.
wells. i cant win it all i guess...but...jeez, i just wanna live my life over again.
maybe i'd do the right thing then.
22:17
29.10.03
mood .:+:. [nuts]
listening to .:+:. [the end--groove coverageRMX]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nil]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [cool]
...i tink jing ish going bonkass.
[msn chat log]
[jing]: MEG NOT COMING BACK!!!!
[kris]: wad???
[kris]: y?
[jing]: meg go offline liao...
[jing]: so sad...
[kris]: chey.
[kris]: tot wad.
[jing]: sad!!!
[jing]: cry for me
[jing]: sobs
[kris]: erm
[kris]: oooookay
[jing]: my rou bao!
[jing]: i wan my ROU BAO!!!
[jing]: I WANT MY ROU BAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
[kris]:...........
[kris]: jing. chill.
[kris]: shes not dead yet. its ok.
[jing]: my rou bao...i wan me rou bao
[jing]: sobs
[kris]:.......jing.
[kris]: RELAX.
[kris]: chill out...its okay. she'll be back tml.
[kris]:jeez
[jing]:sigh...rou baoo... mehungryliao
[kris]: i give up.
what can i say, the power of love. lol. hey meg, if u see this, [which i dun tink will happen since she doesnt even know this webbie] give the gurl like, a col or something...before she goes reali outta hand hahas...eniwae, all the best to u guys n jing, rMb....CHILL, okie? lol. ;)
22:37
22.10.03
You are Form 0,
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22:13
21.10.03
mood .:+:. [bored]
listening to .:+:. [email my heart--britney spears]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [100+]
time .:+:. [night loh]
weather .:+:. [okay larhs]
im soOoOOo bored........arghX. tml no skool n no one ish free to go out wif me...by that i mean the ppl that i planned to go out wif...jing mom says canot...phoebe mom dun let...and limin jux too lazy to get her pig ass outta the damn house s0o0o...im online looking 4 peeps 2 pei me go out.
lol.
how desperate can u get?
very, evidently.
*sighs*
life sarks.
jeez.
im bored.
bored bored bored bored bored.
bored till im even askin zampillar to go out wif me.
now u know how desperate i am??
lol.
but maybe it'll be nice meeting him 4 once...at least can put the a face to the name that i know and the guy im tokking to.
right?
RIGHT?!~?!
...wadeva. think im reali bored here. lols.
lalalalalalalalala.
ok i tink i'll log off now before i flood this page.
byes.
22:53
18.10.03
mood .:+:. [sadistic]
listening to .:+:. [lying from you--linkin park]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [morning]
weather .:+:. [cool]
to be sadistic or not to be sadistic, that is the question. hahas, this situation is s0o0 chinese serial. like, double agent stuff and all that. hahas oh whatever~ anyway melv IS my korkor right...and blood runs thicker than water so haha, guess im pretty much decided.
this is gonna be s0o0 fun...hahahahas
yeh yeh im sadistic i know...
and im lovin' it baby~ wahas
we're gonna bring him down. wh0o Ho0...B.O.W rAwKxX man~!!
if you dont know what im talking about, go check out
http://kev.side-project.net/bull.html
[haha hows that for advertising, kor? lols]
if you still dunno wad the hell im toking about, watch this space.
for you peeps who have brains in your ass, i dont mean it literally. lols.
01:55
16.10.03
mood .:+:. [a bit sadded a bit nutxXx(if that makes sense)]
listening to .:+:. [caught in the middle-a1]
eating .:+:. [a bar of strawberi chewy sweet]
drinking .:+:. [peppermint tea]
time .:+:. [afternoon]
weather .:+:. [blardie hot sia~]
[You said that love was just a state of mind/A puzzle made of pieces you can't find/And for me you never really had the time/I was blind/And everything that you meant to me/Is written in the pages of my history/But it's over now as far as i can see/Suddenly...
Things are so different now you're gone
I thought it'd be easy i was wrong
And now i'm caught
And now, i'm caught in the middle
Even though i'm with someone new
All i can think about is you
And now i'm caught
And now, i'm caught in the middle
So different/it's so different/So easy/so easy/But i can't get over you/and i can't get over you...]
so crapped out man...i kena cold today and went for my CL exam paper...so sian canz...then halfway start sneezing my butt off siaz...hahas then take that excuse to skip chem paper 2day hahas...went to c doctor and got a load of pills that i dont need...but at least got MC la...otherwise tcher accuse me of ponning paper [aGaIn~!!] yuppers...hm...wonder wad bryan ish doing now...haha he last night tok to me then sacrifice his chance to drive tank...so now he has to run *wahahahaha* :x yarhx. i mean, s0o0o0o sweet of him ritex?
k fine. too sarca liaox, i know ;p
wah. so sleepy. i tink my medicine kicking in liaos. *yawnx*
trying s0o hard...still cant get you-know-who out of my head. like, damn. yarhx. just found his and my foto. yup...stare at it then ma chiam wan to cry liaos...*sigh* dont understand why i liddat oso...got enough probz liao then still wan get involved in this kinda thing...alwayx say i wont...but then someone i like comes along and tHaTs iT mAn~~
haix. wah the son i hearing now damn approriate lei~ hahs.
life sucks love hurts larhx. wad else to say...
wrote a
poem today...hahs sad moods make for good inspiration
[Sam]
there is sorrow enough in the natural way
from men and women to fill our day
and when we are certain of sorrow in store
why do we always arrange for more?
Sisters all i bid you beware
of giving your heart to a boy to tear.
Buy a true love and you will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie
But fall for love false and all you get
Is a heart full of memories and regret
Sisters, i bear witness it is hardly fair
to give your heart to a boy to tear.
When the short time such a love permits
Ends in tears and getting ditched
And the sweet sunsets you once shared
Are left broken and theres nothing left
Then you'll find--its your own affair--
But...you've given your heart to a boy to tear.
When the one who you chose to love at will
With his warm embrace and laughter, are stilled
When the only one who understood
Is gone--wherever he goes--for good,
You will discover how much you care
And will give your heart to a boy to tear.
We've sorrow enough in the natural way
Enough heartbreak will each passing day
Our loves are not given but only lent
At compound interest of cent per cent
Though it is not always the case, I believe
That the longer we hold on the more we grieve
For when debts are payable, right or wrong
A short-time loan is as bad as long
So why in Heaven (even before i am there)
Do i still give my heart to a boy to tear?
17:12
11.10.03
mood .:+:. [happie {shanana}]
listening to .:+:. [youve got a friend--james taylor]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [water]
time .:+:. [niteynitex]
weather .:+:. [cold]
haha...my sister let me read her diary...wah its like, damn damn damn lame canz...wad she had a crush on...wait for it...aArOn cArTeR~!*okay you can scream now...1...2...3...aRgHxXx~!!* hannor...so sIcK rite mY gAwD~ eeyeck. but her crush on dandiel radcliffe i can understand la...haha he's quite cute actualy hahas.
then she want to read MY diary. not tis one la. this one got adult content so she cant see it wahahax *evil siax* eniwae yarh...she wanted to see my written one...but that ne even more cannot..haha inside got veriveriveri detailed descriptionof me n sam kissing inside s0o0o yaRh~ :x
hahas. my mom's helping me alter my cell tee...ernie ordered the sze 4 me like, XL~?! wah somemore i so short...when i wear it look lyk dress sia ahahahas. um yarh. wadeva. hahas. so now she alter, looks more like my size upx...a lil better liaos.
eniwae mi gotta zhao liaos... tired n i gotta wake up at 8 go church tmlz...tc peepurx~
+:.when youre down and troubled/and you need a helpin' hand/and nothing, oh nothing is going right/close your eyes and think of me/and soon i will be there/to brighten up even your darkest night...
you just call out my name
and you know wherever i am
i'll come running [oh yeah baby]
to see you again
winter spring summer or fall
all you gotta do is call
and i'll be there
yeah yeah yeah
you got a friend.:+
22:54
9.10.03
mood .:+:. [bonkass and damn sianned out]
listening to .:+:. [miss independent--kelly clarkson]
eating .:+:. [cranberries wahaha]
drinking .:+:. [ribena]
time .:+:. [erm. evening]
weather .:+:. [veriveriveri cold]
26 explanations about my crappy attitude that my mom keeps complaining about
A is for atrocious, the papers are way too hard
B is for bonkers, this crap is driving me nutx
C is for crazy, thats what the teachers are
D is for damn, this is taking it way too far
E is for exams, the inter-continential law
F is for [i dont give a shit, what the hell] fuck it all
G is for goner, what i most probably am
H is for hello, the lit paper just killed my hands
I is for intelligence, i just dont have it, like fuck~
J is for just joking, im actually bloody smart
K is for kristy, itx not that she doesnt want to try
L is for lazy, and thats the reason why
M is for mother, who's driving me all over the wall
N is for nagger, yup i think that explains it all
O is for OMIGAWD, no way, i dont believe this shit
P is for please, this cant be my paper, this cant be it
Q is for queen of excuses, when it comes to studies and me
R is for retained, which is what im gonna be
S is for slacker, yeah baby thats my middle name
T is for take my time chillin', its how i play this game
U is for understood, im just a damn pig
V is for very well, the way i handle this shit
W is for why we gotta mug, i dont understand
X is for all the xtra playtime i get coz i dont give a damn
Y is for yellow, thats what all those conformists are 2 me
Z is for zonked out, which is what they'll be
but baby i'll be perfectly fine
coz im blowin this off n im taking my time
im the only one here in all this insanity
the only one who realises that slacking's gd 4 me~!!
yo peeps you can go on n mug ur pathetic life away
but you only live this life once so all im gonna do is play
when you realise it all comes to nothin maybe you'll change your mind
and remember what this slacker said and that she's always right
so when you feel like youre half dead
just remember what your old pal said
"baby if only you could see me now
im on top and youre going down
hard work pays off in the future
but sugar, slacking pays off now."
+:. chill, y'all~!!.:+
18:04
3.10.03
mood .:+:. [floating somewhere around cloud 9 *i think~*]
listening to .:+:. [dont wanna try--frankie J]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [milo]
time .:+:. [nightynight]
weather .:+:. [hot. first time itx been hot at night. (0.0)]
haha....ah pang likes me~!! haha yAyYy~ *hits the ceiling again* oh. oWw. *sorri i know im a bit bonkAsS~* cant help it larh...im s0o0 happy...s0o damn happy until the fact that im not the only gurl he likes doesnt really bother me that much. *shrugx* what can i say? i dont really like to share, but what can i do? grab him by the shoulders and shake him and scream OEI AH PANG YOU CANT LIKE ANYONE ELSE EXCEPT ME~!! ...abit
over-P ritex...haha nvm...
if he's meant for me, he'll be mine n no one can take him away from me. but if someone else can, he was never mine to start with...and it just means that therex someone better out there for me--
but damn, that does take some believing, sometimes.
eniwae exams started off alreddy...so i wont be logging in often...think i'll get retained or drop to N(A) or sth...i mean, i havent reali studied. then i pon CL oral on monday to go meet toad...and then pon math class and run out of the lesson halfway to go meet ah pang go esplanade~~ haha original pai kia, my own style~~ rAwKxX mAn~ ;pPp
haha wad am i tokking about?
haha *bLuRx*
tinking too much about someone else to tink about what im writing. *dAmN* ;p
wah toad come online liao...crap...scared of him sia...eva since i make him angry...he try jio me then move so damn fast...then hear all those stories about him...scare sia...then now he angry wif me damn freaky...
somemore stay so near me....
*hELp~!!*
haha...
nvm la...guess i'll be fine. he's most prob too angry wif me to care about me liao.
does that make sense?
no right?
yarh haha. ;p
haha eniwae if anithing happen at least still got ah pang help me
;p hahaha...
btw ah pang...if ur reading tis...thx 4 alwayx being there 4 me...n helpin out, ya know...yep, thx a million~ *hUgX* ;pPp
gtg...my mom yelling like freakin hell liddat...better go b4 she wake the whole damn neighborhood up. ciao..nitey
22:33
