26.5.04
mood .:+:. [sadded.]
listening to .:+:. [what i go to school for--busted]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [cool]
i have bad news.
very very very bad news.
no its not what youre thinking, the guy still likes me. =)
no the DM didnt call my house saying i skipped detention for the fourth time.
NO. whatever you're talking about, i DIDNT steal it, DIDNT lie about it, and i DIDNT plagarize it.
the bad news is...
i have 30 cds in my cd collection.
[no thats not the bad part the bad part is]
I HAVE ANTS IN MY CDS.
yes you read right dont give me tt 0.o look.
theres like this WHOLE NEST OF ANTS making their happy home in my favorite cds.
hell they even started a family.
now i have an ant farm.
eggs and larvae and worker ants and soldier ants and a BIG FAT QUEEN.
arrrr.
of all the infestable stuff in my house [like my moms clothing or my dads shoes or even my little sisters pillow] they HAVE TO INFEST MY CDS.
dumb ants.
i took out my Tao Ze [David Tao] cd to play and it was literally CRAWLING with ants.
as in the ants could lift the cd up and walk so it looked like the cd was crawling.
so i did what any normal, rational, quick-thinking teenage girl would do.
SCREAM MY HEAD OFF.
and i jumped onto the bed.
of course it didnt hit me that i was holding the cd in my HAND and therefore jumping on beds or anywhere else for that matter would save me from that tiny army.
so the little ants started biting me.
i mean its okay when one or two bite you but ABOUT 30 FREAKING ANTS were biting my hand off and it HURT.
so what do you do when it hurts?
scream some more.
of course this time i had the sense to drop the cd.
[or maybe it was the pain, but whatever.]
and it didnt turn out to be a very good idea because i was standing ON THE BED.
so the little six-legged freaks started running all over my bed and in my pillow on my bolster and ALL OVER THE PLACE.
no prizes for guessing what i did next.
yep.
SCREAM.
scream until my dad came in and like any gallant male he said...
"kristy STOP SCREAMING get off the bed and for GOODNESS SAKE theyre only ANTS, girl. no need to scream."
only ants.
hah.
only about 10 000 ants crawling all over my bed where im standing.
oh yeah sure dad nothing to it.
i guess the age of chilvary has officially died.
anyway my dad finally figured i was screaming and jumping around too much to get the spray he went to get it himself ans terminated all the ants. im sure he mustve felt like a hero cos next he said, "okay, get a towel, a mop and go clean your cds."
ack.
disgusting.
i hate ants.
seriously. im terrified of them. when they bite it HURTS.
even after my dad sprayed them all dead with mosquito spray i wore slippers into the room and didnt even dare touch the floor with my bare feet.
or any other part of my body.
but my precious cds...
so yeah.
for the sake of my cds i bore the sight of that digusting massacre and started doing the burial work.
some cds had ant nurseries in it.
like, the covers were filled with EGGS.
ew.
i got a pail of water and dumped all such nurseries in it [hahaha BYEBYE ant babies hahaha. ...man. i feel like hitler.]
then i took a mop and mopped up all the dead ants.
so the floor was pretty clean but my cds still had dead ants sticking to it.
so i had to WIPE them.
and now my cds are all ANTY. and disgusting. and covered with ANT BLOOD.
ack.
sick.
even though i wiped them im POSITIVE theres still some minute traces of ant DNA somewhere...
and my tao ze cd is RUINED.
i had to dump the cover into the pail of water because the ants decided his face on the cd would be perfect for the little babies to look at as soon as they hatched.
[HARHARHAR they never got to hatch. so there ants. muahahahaha.]
and now its gone.
nooooooo...
so i dumped all the cds into the pail and watched them swimming round and round until they sank and drowned and hit the bottom hahahahahahaha.
revenge is so so sweet.
and at the same time...
pretty sick.
I HATE ANTS.
i will hunt ALL OF YOU DOWN and destroy every last trace of you in my house MUAHAHAHA that will teach you to make your dumb nest in my PRECIOUS CDS.
hurhurhur.
I MUST AVENGE MY CDS.
or maybe im just taking my anger out on tiny,
defenceless ants because theyre the only things i can annihilate and bully.
and kill.
because they cant defend themselves against ant spray.
and theyre small.
puny.
weak.
and because theyre...the...only things...i can torture...
man.
i cant believe this but im actually feeling guilty for KILLING ANTS.
0.o
whats happening to me.
some ant mustve got into my brain while i was killing them and is controlling my mind.
ack. no.
nonono im fine theres no ant in my brain.
or maybe i should just take my brain out and dump it into a pail of water....
okay, never mind. not a good idea.
ack.
what am i talking about.
i must be deranged.
i better go get some sleep...
oh no.
cant.
ants are in my bed and my moms helping me de-ant it now.
GRRRRR DARN ANTS.
i'll have to sleep on the sofa tonight with no air-con and its ALL THEIR FAULT.
acks.
21:33
mood .:+:. [tired.]
listening to .:+:. [summer sunshine--the corrs]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [ribena]
time .:+:. [evening]
weather .:+:. [raining]
well...had a pretty boring day in skoo today.
going through papers and all.
man.
could hardly keep my eyes open.
didnt talk to anyone in school today...was wayyy too tired.
just sat at my desk and stared out the window like some zombie.
i even walked right into the library door lol.
talked to ivan on the phone today...
hahahaha he sounds funny.
like jun an.
oops.
=x
sorry.
>.<
but i bet i sound worse right...?
[ack. darn sore throat.]
and im sorry ivan i wasnt exactly very talkative on the phone. >.< im really really tired. i promise i'll talk more next time okay? ...hehe.
heard he's going for the OB trip to israel and UK soon...for 3 weeks. so loooong...lol i'll miss him. =p ...hey take care of yourself when youre over there okay? come back in one piece =x haha. have fun..!
-yawn-
i better go get some rest...
NONONO.
i gotta stay awake and STUDYYY.
argh...
must...study...
o levels in 5 days...
-FREAKOUT!!-
hais.
if this kinda stress goes on im so gonna cRaCk.
bleah.
no, not bleah.
its aCk.
lol.
i need sleeeeeep...
oh well.
better go study already.
byeee.
[haha.
he likes me.
he still likes me.
^__________^
yayyyyyy.
hehehehehe.
HE LIKES ME.
-in happyland-]
17:16
25.5.04
mood .:+:. [happy]
listening to .:+:. [the ding-dong msn messenger popup sound]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [hot]
jings friend wrote this reeeeally nice poem.
[whats with me and poems today.]
i got her green light to put it down here...
and its exactly how i felt about the guy i like.
actually how i still feel about the guy i like.
+:.i guess you heard
i guess you know
in time i'd have told you but i guess im too slow
i dont want to change things
leave them just as they were
nothings really happened its just me who feels strange
im always lost for words when someone mentions your name
the rain has stopped
the storm has passed
look at all the colors the sun's here at last
i suppose you'll be leaving
but i want you to know
part of you stays with me no matter where
you go
like an actor playing someone else's role
i want so much to tell you
but i guess you'll never know.:+
nice poem right.
okay...so i edited some parts to fit my story better...
but basically i love her poetry.
if only i could write like that.
lol.
so, so nice.
gawd.
yeh anyway i'll stop drooling over her poem and continue drooling over the guy instead.
[i wanted to say "my guy" but i dont think its safe to put the word pro-noun"MY" in front of the "guy" yet. oh well.]
oh btw, i got a new punchline.
its, "ack."
hahaha.
actually i used it most when i was at berkelah.
like every 5 mins.
but i tink its a nice word.
ack.
hahahahaha.
ok i'll stop.
must be going insane.
that guys fault la.
heres another poem before i go. [for real.]
+:.time is the enemy of love
the thief that shortens
all our golden hours
i have never understood then
why lovers count their happiness
in days and nights and years
when our love can only be measured
in joys and sighs and tears.:+
going now.
BYEEEE.
20:07
mood .:+:. [half-asleep]
listening to .:+:. [jingyi yapping reading poetry next to me. never thought i'd see the day.]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [morning]
weather .:+:. [in air-con.]
in skoo now...
we got an 1 hour recess break [YAY] so i got extra time to use the comp lab and daydream about the guy.
hehehe.
anyway i came across some pretty cool poems [or rather jingyi was yapping again--shes laughing her ass off at some weird poem now i think she needs psychiatrical help--and i heard her yapping a very cool poem] so here goes.
= i gazed upon the cloudless moon
and loved her all the night
till morning came and radiant noon
and i forgot her light
no, not forget--eternally
remains its memory dear;
but could the day seem dark to me
because the night was fair?
emily bronte =
= who walks with Beauty has no need of fear
the sun and moon and stars keep pace with him
invisible hands restore the ruined year
amd time itself grows beautifully dim.
david morton =
in case youre wondering what jingyi was laughing about [oh shit now im laughing too] yeah it went something like this.
JY: hahahahahahahahahahaha -laughter fit-
ME: [looks at JY] siao. [goes back to typing]
JY: no hahahaha its really very funny hahahahahahaha...
ME: ... -_-"
JY: no look look... [points at book]
ME: what la. [reads the line she is pointing to]
ok the line went like, "clothed with the sun and moon under her feet..."
JY: if the moon rise at night then she nowhere to stand then she fall down ar?
ME: ...-blink blink- then -laughter fit-
JY: hahahaha...[stops laughing for awhile] then if the sun set then how she got no clothing ar...hahahahaha...
ME: -laughter fits-
man.
now i know why jingyi sucks at lit.
hurhur.
some of my lameness must be rubbing off on her hahahaha.
but the part about not wearing clothing...?
yup, that was just her.
[im an honest girl i dont take credit for other peoples ideas. =)]
JY says thanks.
you're welcome man.
-grins-
11:41
24.5.04
mood .:+:. [tired]
listening to .:+:. [i hate everything about you--3 days grace]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [cool]
+:.Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I start to think about you I know
Only when you start to think about me
Do you know
I
hate
everything about you
Why
do I love you?
You
hate
everything about me
Why
do you love me?.:+
my sore throats getting worse.
it hurts like i just swallowed the whole stack of Classified ads from the Straits Times.
when im talking in my normal voice i sound like a tone-deaf parrot.
when im talking louder, i sound like my voice is breaking.
when im trying to sing i sound like im drunk.
tone-deaf, drunk parrot whose breaking its voice.
very, very cool.
(x_X)
shouldnt have sang so much at the falls on saturday night.
hais.
21:25
mood .:+:. [happy.]
listening to .:+:. [walking on sunshine--jump 5]
eating .:+:. [fruits]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [afternoon]
weather .:+:. [cool]
+:.I used to think maybe you loved me,
now I know that it's true
And I don't wanna spend my whole life
just a waitin' for you
Now I don't want you back for the weekend,
not back for a day,
I said baby I just want you back,
and I want you to stay
I'm walking on sunshine
I'm walking on sunshine
I'm walking on sunshine
And don't it feel good,
hey, all right now,
and don't it feel good.:+
berkelah SO TOTALLY ROCKED.
the trek there was like... (x_X) but it was worth it.
i got dirty sweaty stinky wet and injured but it was FUN.
really really FUN.
[ok, maybe part of the fun was because tt guy was there but...]
hahaha.
the place was my kind of heaven.
no buildings or cars or mrt stations or whatever just grass and sand and water and sun and LOTS OF SKY.
and this might sound weird but climbing the rocks up to the waterfall was fun.
i guess its the danger and thrill that makes it fun.
tho the danger freaked me out.
really freaked me out. i was grabbing onto roland and ivan for like half the time and just staring at the rapids wonderin how long it'd take me to die if i fell.
>.<
haha but im still alive so hahaha YAY I MADE IT.
lol.
i wanna go back n do it all over again tml.
and when youre sitting in front of the waterfall and swimming in the pool in front of it and looking up at it the feeling is just....
whoa.
happy.
haha.
oh but guess what.
he told me HE LIKES ME.
yayyyy.
i never thought it would happen but HE LIKES ME.
hahahahaha.
YAY.
its like he just made the rest of my entire lifetime and im stuck up on cloud 9 and im not coming down ever because i cant and i dont want to.
i think im nuts but...
who cares HE LIKES ME.
hehehe.
HELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESMEHELIKESME.
(^___^)
i can hardly believe it but its true...*in happyland* HE LIKES ME.
lol.
sorry.
but this is what im like when im really happy.
which hasnt happened in a long time.
its like...i dont know, my biggest wish come true and its the best present i could ever get.
maybe sometimes the impossible really does happen.
=)
15:23
18.5.04
mood .:+:. [happy]
listening to .:+:. [ocean avenue--yellow card]
eating .:+:. [chocs]
drinking .:+:. [ribena]
time .:+:. [afternoon]
weather .:+:. [very very hottt.]
+:.There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go It's everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crush down on me and take me away
I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight, not here, not now
We're looking up in the same night sky
We keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night, somewhere, somehow.:+
sooo sleepy.
cant wait for the berkelah falls trip.
-grin-
so fun. hahaha.
except for that thing about me being on the third shift.
in ivan's words, "pppooorrr Kristy ... getting the third shift for sentry duty...hehehe..."
YES. poooor me.
i mean, at 3am???
man. i dont think i can get up.
even if someone started jumping on me or threw me down the falls.
>.<
anywayyyy.
ms lena koh confiscated everyones playing cards today.
except for mine hehehe.
cos i sat on them. lol.
oh yeah jingyi taught me this really cool song at the pool yesterday.
it was only two verses long but we made two more.
haha its sooo cool i just gotta log it here.
[you're my hunny-bunny, sugarpuff
nummy-yummy, yupkins
you're my sweetie-pie
youre my cupcake, muffin-head
stickums-bickums, you're
the apple of my eye
you're my puppy-wuppy, smoochy-woochy
angel, you're my
kissy-custard-poo
you're my teddy-beary, lollipop
sugar-drop, sweet sugar
baby
I LOVE YOU!]
hahaha.
makes your hair stand doesnt it.
lolll.
hey but you gotta admit, it is cute.
but wayyy too soppy.
so so soppy i wouldnt even sing it to the guy i like unless it was part of a game of Death or Dare.
haha but its soooo CUTE.
oh one last thing.
GO WATCH TROY.
its ROCKSSSS.
my only complaint is that
that BRAD PITT is hogging the WHOLE SHOW.
>.<
15:38
16.5.04
LAYER ONE: What is your..?
-- Name: kristy
-- Birth date: 5th september 88
-- Birthplace: lalaland.
-- Current Location: studyroom
-- Eye Color: hazel
-- Hair Color: VERY DARK brown
-- Height: 152cm. shortness. >.<
-- Right handed or Left handed: righty.
LAYER TWO:
-- Heritage: eurasian. or, scottish-portugese-dutch-chinese. -grin-
-- Weakness: i think too much sometimes. and wayyy too impulsive. hurhur.
-- Biggest fears: not going to heaven when i die...and telling the guy i like that i like him. >.< AND COCKROACHES. eek.
-- Your perfect pizza: double cheese and cheese crust with everything on it.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: erm. have enough guts to tell the guy i like that i like him? lol. actually...make it to NAP.
LAYER THREE: Your…?
-- Most overused phrase(s): "hahaha...weeeeeee. hahahahaha..." and "-laughter fit-"
-- Thoughts first waking up: "too early. im going back to sleep." oh and i tink of tt guy too. hurhur.
-- Best physical feature: ermerm...eyes??
-- Usual bedtime: when im tired.
-- Most missed memory: when i was a kid and didnt have to worry about stuff like my Os and parents and that guy. lol.
LAYER FOUR: Preferences..?
-- Pepsi or Coke: cokey.
-- McDonald's or Burger King: BK.
-- Single or group dates: dont really care. either ones just as good. as long as that guy is there hehe. [do i sound obsessed to u? really? oh...dont care. =p]
-- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: coffee. =)
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla.
-- Cappuccino or Latte: cappucino.
LAYER FIVE: Do you…?
-- Smoke: used to.
-- Sing: uh who doesnt.
-- Take a shower every day: ....YES.
-- Have a crush(es): ? yes. yesyesyesyesyes. man. isnt it obvious by now?
-- Do you think you've been in love: ...see above. YES. like, right now?
-- Like high school: school? i hate anything to do with school.
-- Want to get married: yes to that guy hahahahahaha--tho thats abit far-fetched. =p
-- Believe in yourself: erm...not really.
-- Get motion sickness: naw. i havent thrown up since i was 4+.
-- Think you're attractive: no. eww. fat, ugly kristy. eww.
-- Think you're a health freak: yeh...at least im just obsessed over my fats. lol.
-- Get along with your parents: no. hahahaha. never have. trying to tho...but they dont have ta make it so hard for me do they?
-- Like thunderstorms: yeapp.
-- Play an instrument: guitar? and my voice lol.
LAYER SIX: In the past month, you’ve…?
-- Drank alcohol: yess.
-- Gone on a date: nawp. only interested in dating ONE guy and one guy only lol.
-- Gone to the mall: duhs.
-- Eaten sushi: nope.
-- Been on stage: er. no. haha.
-- Been dumped: i have been single since february. lol.
-- Gone skating: yepyep. ice-skating.
-- Shoplifted: sKy toDaY vErY hiGh SiA.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nah. i never will.
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 26-27?
-- Numbers and Names of Childrens: 3 kids...erm, names later decide ba lol. but if i have a guy hes definitely gonna be called xavier. such a c0o0oL name.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: anything, as long as the guy im marrying is the guy i like now. hurhurhur. and where no one stands up when they ask if anyone has any objections.
-- How do you want to die: the fastest possible way.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up?: radio DJ hahaha.
LAYER NINE: In a girl/boy, you would want…?
-- Best eye color: the eye colour of the guy i like
-- Best hair color: the hair colour of the guy i like.
-- Short or long hair: hair like the guy i like's hairstyle. [getting sick of this yet? =p]
-- Height: 170-178cm around there. hehe.
-- Weight: i bet you know what im gonna say. yeh, basically, im not interested in anyone unless he's the guy i like. lols.
LAYER TEN: List the number of:
-- Drugs taken illegally: 2.
-- People I trust with my life: erm. jingyi. [im trusting you you evil girl so dont let me down lol.] aaand my sister. and ivan. lol.
-- CDs that I own: more than 30.
-- Piercings: 5.
-- Tattoos: soon... =p
-- Times my name has appeared in the
newspaper?: er. skoo newspaper can? lol.
-- Scars on my body: 4 on my knees and 1 on my left middle finger and others in really weird places.
-- Things in my past that I regret: too many things ive done that i regretted. and not telling the guy that i like that i like him is not going to be one of them.
20:09
14.5.04
mood .:+:. [half-dead]
listening to .:+:. [dont wanna think about you--simple plan]
eating .:+:. [carrots]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [night]
weather .:+:. [hot]
+:.Can you leave me here alone now
I dont wanna hear you say
that you know me
that i should be
always, doing what you say
cause im trying to get through today
and theres one thing i know
[chorus]
I dont wanna think about you
Think about me
Dont wanna figure this out
Dont wanna think about you
Think about nothing
Dont wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
cause i know
Dont wanna think about you.:+
okay.
was on a high today thinking about you-know-who [if you dont know it means you werent meant to know so DONT ASK.] and smiling like an idiot throughout the MCQ n CME exams.
lol.
yeah...hurhur.
weeee.
too tired to be high now actually.
oh i made a new song today.
its called 'starkle starkle little twink.'
cool huh.
=)
oh well.
bored.
boredboredbored.
i gotta get up early tomorrow n go have a good workout.
must...release...stress.
ever been in a situation where you really reeeeeally like someone soooo much you could just burst and would do anything for that person, anything at all, bring down the moon and go all the way to hell and back just to--
yeah, you get the idea.
...and just CANT go for it, or even dare to let yourself hope...that maybe that person might, just MIGHT...--
dont even dare to let yourself think that--
maybe...
and keep waiting...because its not the right time yet. because theres so much other things at the moment and youre so tied down...
to have that someone in front of you, so close and yet somehow so far away.
and just think about how nice it'd be, how perfect if he could just like you back, even for once second...
and think maybe he likes you too, but doesnt want to tell you, and then convince yourself beyond ALL doubt he DOESNT like you because you dont wanna hope too much, expect too much and be disappointed.
and for now you just wanna keep the friendship the way it is.
BUT.
you still go reading volumes into every single little thing he says and not delete a single sms or message or anything from him cos you just cant BEAR to do it.
and youre NUTS, bonkasssss for him.
but cant do ANYTHING about it.
and all you can do is wait, hope, pray and wish...that maybe someday...
man.
i like him so much.
but i cant...
i'll just have to wait for the right timing...
but i guess i could wait forever.
just for him.
yep, i definitely could.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
=)
so God, please grant me patience and give it to me RIGHT NOW.
harhar. after readin thru all that i just typed, i have arrived at the simple conclusion that:-
i am drunk.
or insane.
or on a drug-induced high.
hm, didnt take drugs in ages and no i havent touched alcohol today.
must be insane.
not im NOT insane.
of COURSE im insane, im talking to myself.
aw, shut up.
22:30
12.5.04
mood .:+:. [undefined]
listening to .:+:. [lean on me--bill withers]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [late morning]
weather .:+:. [drizzling]
+:.sometimes in our lives,
we all have pain,
we all have sorrow.
but if we are wise,
we know that there's
always tomorrow.
Lean on me,
when you're not strong
and I'll be your friend.
I'll help you carry on,
for it won't be long
'til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on.:+
bad day today.
screwed up my entire chinese pp2.
like i didnt understand a thing the compre passage wasy saying and i couldnt read half the words in there.
in the end i guess i lost about 30m from that part because of all my incoherent answers.
even an american gorilla blindfolded could do better.
man...
had a depressing week so far, and its not only because of the exams.
im not trying to get sympathy here cos i dont need it.
its just really really pushing me to my limits and this is one of the times i feel like im dropping down a big bottomless hole.
anyway im going out to town later today, most prob orchard or sth like that.
so thats been like, one perk in this whole crapped up week.
not too bad, huh?
...right.
who am i trying to kid.
bleah.
11:21
8.5.04
mood .:+:. [on a high.]
listening to .:+:. [that girl--lindsay lohan]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [afternoon]
weather .:+:. [hottt.]
+:.armed with an attitude
that she knows how to use
she's gonna get there any way she can
now she knows what she wants
no one is gonna stop her
nothing's ever gonna hold her back
for all the doubters
non-believers
the cynical that once were dreams
one of these days
you'll know that you were wrong
who would've known
that girl was a one-time
teenage drama queen
a hot tough
everyday wannabe
but she'll have changed her destiny
now shes a somebody
that girl was a wildchild dreamer
but she'll find herself
cos she believes
in nuthin else
then you'll look back
and you won't believe
that girl was me.:+
chemistry exam today sucked.
i totally screwed up. like, half the paper was blank.
and to think i still have a whole week more to go...
man...
>.<
anyway i wrote a poem on extra paper in the exam hall today when i couldnt answer anymore of the chem questions.
and smuggled the paper outta the hall hahaha.
here it is. in case i lose the paper [and knowing myself i probably will].
>>>
in the cold air of the morning
deathly silence falls
we soldiers armed prepare to fight
the bloodiest battle of all
to the beat of whitened shoes
warriors marching to the fore
fearless, we fear only the crime
of backing down from our call
inside each valiant heart
echoes our silent battle cry:
victory or death in glory
for the standard, fight and die!
we, pawns in an endless game
what choice have we but to take
the risk and battle to the death
when there is no known escape?
under relentless charge of the enemy
i watch the frontlines fall
above the rustle i hear myself cry:
victory or not at all!
with weapon drawn, from three lines back
i charge into the clash
with ink-stained hands the slaughter begins
as weapons strike and slash
across the enemy; they fall at my feet
watch my army crash and burn
and i know its only a matter of time
before it is my turn
then i meet the mighty adversary
feel myself hit the ground
fight a losing battle
my enemy strikes me down
the fight over for the moment
as the last one standing falls
but still i hear the brave outcry
you've won the battle, but not the war
defeated but not broken, we march
out of the examination hall.
:)
>>>
nice?? hahaha.
anyway i go play GB now.
13:57
5.5.04
mood .:+:. [IWANTTOSLEEEEP.]
listening to .:+:. [the sound of rain falling]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [100+]
time .:+:. [late afternoon?]
weather .:+:. [ermm...raining?]
+:. i am the person who sits next to you in class.
i am the person who is a bit overweight.
i am the person who is laughed at because i am short.
i am the person who is picked on because i like computers.
i am the person who talks funny.
i am the person who isn't great at gym.
i am the person who is always to blame.
i am the person who takes the bus home in fear.
i am the person who stumbles when i walk too fast.
but...
i am also the person who is brave enough to get up and do it again the next day.
[nigel potts] .:+
nice quote yeahs?
just came back from jogging 1.6km [of my own free will. amazed? :p] and im pretty tired now.
-yawn-
the english exam didnt go too bad today...
but the paper was pretty tough.
okay, very tough.
and if the mid-years are gonna be like this, i dont wanna even think about the O levels.
lols.
nah...
i can make it.
i can make it.
i can make it.
:)
yknow mrs tan said that people who repeat the same sentence over and over again to reassure themselves constantly are paranoid, insecure and think too much.
hahaha.
maybe i do think too much.
at least i know i got sth to write for the lit exam on friday LOLS.
aiight.
now i'll tell you a lame joke.
tommy jumped out of the window from the 10th storey.
why didnt he die?
[dont scroll down yet la. think first.]
[think somemore.]
cos he was lucky.
hahaha.
lols. cold, yeh i know.
i'll go play GB now.
maybe blog back later with another lame joke.
-grin-
17:25
3.5.04
mood .:+:. [sleepyhead.]
listening to .:+:. [if i aint got you--alicia keys]
eating .:+:. [sunflower chocolate seeds.]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [afternoon]
weather .:+:. [hot]
+:.Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me
Chorus
Some people want it all
But I don't
Want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you.:+
so tired.
-bigBIGyawn-
was readin the tags on ivans tagboard just now.
somehow the words 'daddy ivan' just doesnt GO.
and lol, as if saying he sounds like my dad isnt bad enough, thinking of him as my DAD is like...
EWWWW. -goosebumps-
lol.
it doesnt exactly fit.
lols...anyways.
jessica lim was talking to herself in class today.
so distracting hahaha.
but very funny.
oh well. no one wants to talk to her so she talks to herself.
poor girl.
well i gotta load of stuff to revise and my art work to do so i cant really blog here long...
but guess the only good stuff thats come along this week is the thing that I CAN GO TO BERKELAH FALLS.
hahahaha YAY.
cant wait.
haha imgoingtoberkelahfallsimgoingtoberkelahfallsimgoingtoberkelahfallsimgoingtoberkelahfalls...
weeeeeeee.
actually the idea of trekking right next to a waterfall is a little scary.
pretty scary.
okay, very scary.
and im a accident-prone person.
knowing all the little accidents i had on bkt timah, i might slip and fall and...right. better not think about it.
man. scary.
haha but WHO CARES cos IM GOING TO BERKELAH FALLS.
not many ppl turning up...
so far heard that only sean beatrice ivan delia n me going.
which is like, really little.
but who CARES cos IM GOING TO BERKELAH FALLS.
-grin-
hahahahahahaha weeeeeheeee.
so happy.
=x
lols. kk.
i better go study now.
blog back later.
15:38
1.5.04
mood .:+:. [tired but happy. happily tired.]
listening to .:+:. [take me away--fefe dobson]
eating .:+:. [nth]
drinking .:+:. [nth]
time .:+:. [morning]
weather .:+:. [hot]
just came back from the beach.
went for some overnight camping thing with my dad n his cpu yesterday.
slept at 5am and woke up at 8.
so sleepy now.
-yawn-
christy was there 2. we went around walking and ended up getting lost.
i mean how can you find your way around when youre in pasir ris park and all you see is GRASS and TREES and SAND. [eg, hey i think i've seen this blade of grass before--we've definitely GOT to be walking in circles.]
ended up walking down this reeeeally dark road where all the electric lamps were out.
freaky.
and there was construction going on around there.
though there was no one in that area we kept hearing weird things.
oh well.
in the end we followed this guy who was on a bike so yep, got back eventually. [duh. or i wouldnt be typing this now.]
haha.
first thing i did when i woke up this morning was jump in the sea.
and now i have sandfly bites all over my legs.
was worth it though--i saw JELLYFISH. not just one, about 3.
haha tot they were plastic bags and was gonna pick them up till i realised plastic bags dont have tentacles.
hEnG sIa.
lols.
right then im sleepy.
so imma go play gunbound to wake myself up.
10:49
