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in the blackness of your feelings
how red the rivers run;
drawn from your wrist,
silk silent screams--
let darkness overcome.
from sorrow, to pain, to metal
and rush of sweet release.
feel your soul melt,
rip your canvas;
let these chains set you free.
broken-winged dove, draw closer
and be born into the night.
let darkness free you,
sweet addiction bind you,
let surrender your soul light.
call to the dark, the dark will answer;
from your altar you will rise--
beautifully broken,
deathful resurrection,
angel of blood and knife;
unending sacrifice.
red rush; by moi.
28.10.06
you give love a bad name.
.. Could you whisper in my ear/The things you wanna feel/I'll give you anything/To feel it comin'/Do you wake up on your own/And wonder where you are/You live with all your faults/Chorus: I wanna wake up where you are/I won't say anything at all/So why don't you slide/Yeah we're gonna let it, slide../Don't you love the life you killed/The priest is on the phone/Your father hit the wall/Your ma disowned you/Don't suppose I'll ever know/What it means to be a man/Something I can't change/I'll live around it/Chorus: I wanna wake up where you are/I won't say anything at all/So why don't you slide/Yeah we're gonna let it, slide../And I'll do anything you ever/Dreamed to be complete/Little pieces of the nothing that fall/May put your arms around me/What you feel is what you are/And what you are is beautiful/May do you wanna get married/Or run away../yeah, right.
you bloody liar.
don't say the words if all you're going to do is take them right back after.
don't say you'd do anything i dream of.
if i said i dreamt of forever for us, would you promise me that?
don't tell me you want to wake up where i am.
chances are, there will come a day i will wake up to find you gone.
don't tell me we're gonna get married and run away, and go see the world and have tons of fantastic adventures.. don't even go there.
if it was supposed to be a joke, it's the worst one ever.
if it wasn't, then don't mention a damn thing about any of that if a while later, you're gonna take it all back and give me some kind of safe promise instead and think its a good enough subsitute.
i know how much you've given, how far you've come for me, and i am grateful for that, i truly am.
but what happens when that just isnt enough?
i am SO sick of your safe so-called promises, sick to the stomach of your maybe's and as-long-as's.
if you hate making 'rash choices', then should we even have started this?
with every safe promise you made last night and with every maybe, you took the breath right out of me and left a hole where my heart was.
you say its not that you don't want to stay with me forever.
well, i really want to take over the world and be an evil overlord.
but that just isn't going to happen, is it..? no matter how much i want to.
--and besides, who the fuck really stays boyfriend and girlfriend for life..? --unless it's an extra-marital affair.
you say i meet your needs, and more. and im glad.
but do you meet mine..?
will you never be willing to.. or is it a matter of, like me, you just can't?
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